What often frustrates and derails the spiritual student is the quandary of how to live all the things learned along the path. The purpose of this blog is not to ask anyone to change a belief but to help those who are intent in their pursuit of living in alignment with their beliefs to put those ideals into their real lives.
Personal:I call myself a Life “Guide” not “Coach” for
a reason.I see myself like a guide one
might hire to take on a trek in Tibet or a safari in Africa.Someone who knows the terrain and can help
you have your journey at the optimum level.That being said, I am always somewhat hesitant to write about subjects
such as today’s topic as there is a fine line between “informing” and “planting
a thought”.However, I made a commitment
2 years ago in Don’s recovery room, and it is my intention to honor that
commitment however personally uncomfortable it may sometimes be.
Cautionary:If you have NOT had any of the experiences described
below, PLEASE do NOT assign any
meaning to it and do NOT use it as any self judgment.You may have had some different experience or
your experience may be yet to come.I
only offer the following in the sense that it what a guide would do.
MOVEMENT IN THE FORCE
Apparently there was a huge
download of energy last weekend.(You
can research it for yourself, or, if you happen to be lucky enough to know
friend Fran [a beautiful being who’s dedicated her life to spreading the
information of the light] you can waylay her and she can fill you in.)
There have been many reports
of responses to this energy surge.Some
have reported melancholy, deep depression, heart palpitations, horrendous
headaches, light-headedness, vertigo and one reported what was called an “Incredible
Hulk”-like rage.Fran, Don and I all
experienced violent vomiting.Don had no
fever but a lot of body aches.I had
intense fever and diarrhea as well.Fortunately, this seems to last only about 16-20 hours, after which the
body will need some time to adjust.
During my experience of this
energy integration I had several experiences which I would like to share as
they came in moments of great clarity.
·It was EXTREMELY clear that it was IMPERATIVE
that one does not label the experience.Please refrain from using words like “flu”, “sick”, “depressed” or any
other 3rd dimensional labeling system.For one thing, you don’t want to bring any ancillary
symptoms from whatever you have named your experience.Trust me, whatever you experience will be
enough.If you must talk about it just
call it “movement in the body”.
·I was astounded
to see how incredibly invested the ego is in the drama of “being sick”/”being
out of sorts”, and how very much it wanted to play the “poor pitiful me”
card.At one point I realized that
staying ahead of the ego’s need for the drama was harder “work” than trying to
keep water down.(Now that’s sick J.)
·Even though the
body was going through its rigors I was
not.I realized it was important for me
to maintain clarity about that difference.Don and I did 2 things to help with this:(1) we used humor as much as possible, i.e. “helluva’
way to lose weight”, and (2) we spoke words of gratitude and love as much as
possible, i.e. “I’m so grateful we both didn’t go down at the same time and we
are here to support each other”.
·I was told during
Don’s episode to view this as an “initiation” of sorts and to honor the event
as a rite of passage.I honestly believe
that it is important to stay in an attitude of “I allow” and to be as present
as possible.Put aside worries about
what isn’t getting done while you are in the throes of your experience so that
you can become aligned with the process.
·I found it
appropriate to invoke the prayer “Ho-oponopono” on several occasions as part of
integrating new energies is releasing old energies.
·I had one of
those experiences where a montage of images flashed before me for about 2
hours.It is quite clear that the
construct and context of our lives is changing rapidly and it would be wise to
become as adaptable as possible.
After the 16-20 hours both of
us experienced a sense of “not really being here” as if we were out of sync
with things.It took a couple of days
for equilibrium to return.Even now we
are moving at “slow motion”.
BTW, the person with the “Hulk”-like
rage almost caused a car accident and as terrible as that may seem they “saw”
in that instant what anger can do and have now made the conscious decision to
remove it from their life.
Whatever your experience of
the “new energies” may be, it behooves you to not label/limit it to any
previous understanding.All that is new
and wonderful is eagerly awaiting access to you, your consciousness and your
life.Open the doors of your heart and
life as wide as you can and let the light shine in.
(Personal note:I thought I had already written about this
but I don’t find that I have.At any
rate I am being urged to kick it up a notch/go the next step/dig deeper [choose
your favorite euphemism].This is the
longest piece I have written in a long time.I had thought about sending it in segments, but it really needs to be
absorbed as a whole.As always, use this
material as you are guided.)
TIME OUT – TIME OFF
I have found myself in
several conversations lately wherein the topic has been how hard it is to
fulfill good intentions….staying present, meditation, being in joy, having an
open heart, etc.It has become apparent
that what is “up” right now is what I personally think is THE biggest hurdle in
the way of the spiritual sojourner.
As you may know, one of my
favorite quotes is “You cannot be totally committed sometimes.”And herein lies the heart of the matter.
We have been told to “pray
unceasingly”, which translates to me to be in communion with Spirit ALL THE
TIME.And that is the challenge.I
have been living “in the question” of this for several years now.This is what I now know about this topic (and
assume more revelations may follow).
#1 – THE WEEKLY WORSHIP
Even if you do not attend a worship service at some
organized religious place, chances are good that you did sometime in your
life.Even if you didn’t, it is the
pervasive collected consciousness that weekly worship is how you go about being
a “good” person.Underneath this belief
is the idea that what you do “outside” of church is your “real world” and most
can’t be bothered with thinking about their relationship with God.(Of course there are those that are
dedicated, but we are talking about the general atmosphere here.)
Think for a moment.If you attended worship every single week for a year that would be 52
hours of attention focused on Spirit (by whatever name you call it).Since there are 8,760 hours in a year, that
means you spend 8,708 hours not thinking about Spirit.(Again, I do know there are exceptions.)The point being the collective consciousness
has divided its life into “spiritual time” and “other time”.
The concept of “time off” is pervasive in our society –
whether it is vacation time, holiday time, weekend time, girls’/boys’ night
out, date night, or whatever.We are
invested in the idea that we can be “let off the hook” for behavior and that it
is alright for there to be moments when no rules apply.
I often ask people, “What would you think if you were in
a dire situation and prayed to God/the Universe/the Creator for assistance, and
you were greeted with an ‘Out of Office Reply’?”Or, what if you got a message machine that
said, “God is out of the office and won’t be back until next week.He is taking a much needed time off”?Isn’t that whole idea utterly
ridiculous?That God should not be
omnipresent?Why then, do we entertain
the idea that it is alright for us to not be omni-in-the-present?
As you contemplate the “time out syndrome” as it may
apply to you, please be aware that I have come to believe that it is the number
one obstacle to spiritual growth, therefore it needs our utmost attention.And, I believe that all of the following are
inherent within this one big topic.
#2 – KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR
/DAMSEL IN DISTRESS/SILVER BULLET SYNDROME
The collective consciousness is hugely invested in the
idea that “someday my Prince will come”.Some Savior, Knight in Shining Armor, Mommy, Daddy, the President, Mohamed
will come and “save” me and make everything wonderful for me so that I don’t
have to do anything for myself.
There seems to be some idea that we will be relieved of
our worries/problems/short comings by someone/thing magical outside of our
self.This “rescuer” will right all
wrongs, make straight the crooked, absolve us of our misdeeds and then anoint us
as perfect and place a halo above our heads.Sorry to tell you, but I have looked and looked and looked and I can
find no such deal available.
Also in this category is some hope/belief that “If I just
keep searching, I will find the technique/meditation/posture/mantra/pill that
will be the short cut to enlightenment.”I call this the “Silver Bullet” syndrome and I find it is pervasive in
our society – a silver bullet for dieting, exercise, making money, finding a
Of course, at the heart of all this is just plain laziness
-- a desire to reap incredible rewards with little or no effort on our
part.I must admit to the fact that I
got caught in this trap for about a decade and I have looked high and low for
such an animal and it just does not exist.Whether we like it or not the road to enlightenment is a staircase, not
an escalator or elevator.
It seems obvious that there would be no need for a
savior/knight/rescuer unless there was a victim that needed saving, ergo the
damsel in distress part of this topic.We have examined the attitude of victim in other writings but suffice it
to say the prevailing sentiment is “it’s not my fault”.(Please refer to other writings on my blog or
contact me directly if you want to go more in depth on this.)
#3 - BELIEF IN “OTHER”
The profound belief in “other” is based in a fundamental
belief in separation.Again, we have
explored this before.
This belief allows one to “off-load” responsibility and
to cast blame and judgment.It is the
fundamental realm of the ego and is a necessary ingredient in keeping one from
any spiritual progress.
#4 – AN UNWILLINGNESS TO BE
This is a “biggie”.It encompasses both accountability and impeccability.
“Be Impeccable With
Your Word” is the First Agreement.Most people take away that this means they shouldn’t gossip.Please read this Agreement twice a week for a
year or until it is literally the new program of your mind.
Look at the above phrase without prejudice and without
thinking you know what it means.It
means – literally – to tell the truth ALL THE TIME…the whole truth (as you know
it) and nothing but the truth…NO TIME OUTS.
Most of us have grown up telling a “little white lie” or
fudging for dramatic purposes, i.e. “I did it a thousand times” (okay twice),
or “People everywhere were commenting on how great it was” (okay, one person
mentioned it) or “It is the greatest cookie in the world” (really?) or “I am
the just not capable of doing that” (right).The point being we believe that it is okay to not tell the absolute
truth if it really doesn’t hurt anyone or if it can get our point across.What we have forgotten is that every word we
utter or think is recorded in our Being and becomes a part of our belief system
and expression of self.
What I have found to be the most difficult and
enlightening part of being impeccable with words isn’t that we lie to one
another but that we lie to ourselves.It
has been my observation that the one to whom it is hardest to be truthful is “me”.Because, I have found that one is willing to
repeat a belief that may not be the truth over and over until it is no longer
examined and the truth is buried underneath a bunch of emotional baggage.Try listening to your self-talk and then ask
yourself “Is that the truth as I know it?”You may be surprised at what you find.
#5 – A FALSE BELIEF IN
is a belief system that says “what I do in private doesn’t count”.
Well, the first fallacy is that anything we do could not “count”,
but I believe we have covered that elsewhere.The bigger issue here, as I see it, is the idea that there is such a
thing as “privacy”.Now really….if
God/the Creator/ guardians/guides/teachers/mentors/angels/archangels/the
Galactic Federation/the tooth fairy and Santa Claus are always watching, where
is there “privacy”?
There is an old Zen story that I love:
The Master had 3
students to whom he gave a small bird.He told the 3 students to “go somewhere where you cannot be seen and
kill the bird and then bring it to me”.Away they went.
the hour 2 of the students had returned with their dead bird, quite proud of
the fact that they managed to follow his instructions and were not seen.The 3rd student did not show up
until very late in the evening.
the 3rd student arrived his bird was still alive.The Master asked, “Did you not hear my
instructions?You were to go someplace
where you were not seen and kill the bird and return to me.Why have you not done so?”
student replied, “Master, I did try.I
went behind the Church.I went into the
woods.I went every place I could think
of but I could not find a place where God was not and where He would not see
me.I am sorry I have failed.”
Master replied, “Indeed you have not.You have learned the greatest of lessons – you cannot go where God will
not witness what you do, so you must always do what you know you wish H would
witness, for indeed that is the truth.”
Live your life knowing that absolutely every thought you
have and everything you do is witnessed by the hoards of Heaven and are
recorded in the annuls of the Isness.
In closing, I urge you to
realize that indeed the time is NOW and we are being called to be all that we
can be all the time, with no exceptions.
Many have already abandoned
their New Year’s Resolutions.Why?Because change appears to be a hard thing to
do.Nowhere is that more prevalent than
in self-development and spiritual development programs.Or, it could be that it is more obvious
because one is paying attention.
In the Becoming Your
Spiritual Avatar program we begin by establishing what one’s core beliefs are,
developing operational characteristics of said beliefs, and then monitoring
thoughts, behaviors and emotions that are discordant with those beliefs.Then, using the Avatar methodology we
Now, in the past there were
numerous techniques used to try to figure out “why” one does what one does,
i.e. processing, past-life regression, hypnotherapy, etc. etc.What I witnessed for 30 years was all this
did was “tell a story” that let me off the hook.I did thus and so because my parents did thus
and so, or this happened to me therefore I do this, or I’m a Taurus what do you
expect.Then it was easy to settle into “well,
that’s just the way I am…..I understand now why I do what I do.”
As I have worked with the
Avatar aspirants for the past 2 years, as well as the work I have done for
myself and in my other counseling, I have found that there are 3 secondary
energies at work and all lead to a primary reason why change is so hard.
The secondary reasons are:
1)A deep seated belief in right &
wrong.If I change the way I
believe/behave now then everything that I have believed and done must have been
wrong, ergo I have been wrong.And
nothing is more abhorrent to the ego than being “wrong”.
honoring of an authority figure in one’s life – a parent, grandparent,
inspiring teacher, preacher, guru – and a deep seated desire to please them.This honored authority figure taught me to
believe/behave this way and if I change then I will be disrespecting them…..and,
Heaven forbid, they will be disappointed in me.
with current beliefs/behavior.If I
change the way I believe/behave then I won’t know who I am.I will feel exposed and vulnerable.
All of the above lead to the
primary reason why change appears to be so difficult.And that is,
A refusal to take
abject total responsibility for personal choices made.
“On no,” you say.“I most certainly did not choose [this] or
[that].There was nothing I could do
Well, here’s the point at
which one must stand up and be accountable.At EVERY nanosecond of Creation one has the ability to CHOOSE.And if one does not intentionally choose, one
chooses by default.Although we may not
be able to control the circumstance in which we find ourselves, we most
assuredly can control our response to that circumstance and how that effects
our presentation of self.
Human Beings were given the
great gift of Free Will, which allows us to exercise the right to choose.Unfortunately we have become so bogged down
in right/wrong, good/bad that we judge our choices, past and present.Sometimes we stand petrified and make no
choice, which is by default a choice in and of itself – we have just acquiesced
to what is in place.
We have also developed some
sort of belief that we only get “one time at bat”.That is, we believe once a choice is made it
is set in stone.The most magnificent
part of Free Will is that we are given the ability to “choose again”.As we progress in our spiritual growth and
our perspective changes, so too will what is the appropriate choice for
us.We must be willing to utilize this
extraordinary gift that has been given us.
Further, there seems to be
some sort of “finish line” philosophy wherein when I get it “right” then I can
quit and rest on my laurels.I won’t
have to keep changing.Well, I’m sorry
to have to tell you this….but Creation never ceases.Bluntly put, God keeps moving the finish
line.The entire function of the Isness
is based on constant creation, which means constant change.It would probably be a good idea to embrace
change as “the new normal” and find the adventure in it all.See yourself as an explorer of Life, ever
seeking what is new and wonderful, allowing that what has been must change in
order to discover what will be.
The new energies that are
here to support us are a great boost to anyone and everyone willing to activate
their Free Will and begin change through conscious intention.I invite you to join with me as we create our
lives in alignment with what we profess to believe and live in Love, Peace and
Let’s join together, have a
party and go see what’s out there!
Recently the question was
asked, “Isn’t to say ‘It is what it is’ a copout or excuse of the ego to keep
from getting the lesson?”
Of course you are the creator
of your reality, therefore if you say that is what is so then that is what is
so.However, I would like to present
The Lesson, as I have come to
understand it, is:
When one has an
incident and responds/reacts to it with their belief system and judgments in
place they can only “understand” from those already established belief systems
and judgments.Therefore, they are
limited as to what may be gleaned from that incident because it is
colored/hidden by what they already know.
one can remove absolutely all belief systems and judgments and see that incident
as an “it is what it is” occurrence then one is open to allowing what they do
not know to come forth so that they may glean a wisdom to which they do not
already have access or understanding.
allows an entity to look past the personalization of the ego in regard to the
incident and to see the Universal wisdom/application therein.
Recently, I let Ashley out
late one night.Since Mandy & Lyla
had previously gone out and come back in, I “knew” that I only had to be sure
that Ashley was inside.However, Lyla
slipped past me and was shut outside for about1 ½ hours.(Don heard her and let
her in.)When he told me about the
incident in the morning, I had a couple of options as to how to react.
1)My “old self” would have created drama and
gone into blame, guilt, and regret and had a bunch of tears.Internal conversation would have been
something like, “How could I have done such a thing?What is wrong with me?I’m bad/terrible/awful and need to be
2)I could step back
and remove all beliefs and judgment and let it be “what it was”.(I did hug Lyla and showered her with love
and blessed her for the “teacher” I knew she would be from this incident.)
Had I reacted with Scenario
1, the “lesson” I would have taken away would have been “Always count your
dogs.”Not a bad lesson in and of itself
but it is, in truth, a behavioral lesson and it would have further demeaned my
self-worth by continuing the blame and shame game.
By letting the incident “sit”
and percolate so that I could allow its inherent wisdom to come forth what I
received was this:
The truth of a
moment that is past is not necessarily the truth of this moment.It would be a wise entity who did not “rest”
in what it “knows” of what has been but rather is ever diligent to see what is
the truth of this Now.
This great wisdom had nothing
to do with “dogs” but has given me some guidance for my spiritual journey.
As I write this I am “urged”
to offer this gentle reminder:
Nothing has any inherent “meaning”.All meaning is assigned by the ego.A rock is just a rock until it is labeled and
assigned meaning and value as a diamond.Likewise all experiences are experiences whose purpose is to allow us to
have insight so as to advance our spiritual progress and further connect us to
Also, please remember that
judgments of good/bad, right/wrong, worthy/unworthy are third dimensional.That is neither a good or bad thing, however,
it is not found in higher dimensions.As
we move into the higher frequencies now before us the emphasis is on allowance
and the unification of the Oneness.
As always, this is offered
with the greatest of love from the Sacred Stream of Consciousness through me.
Recently, Don & I had the
privilege of watching “Beasts of the Southern Wild”.Suffice it to say I loved it, particularly
the voice-over dialogue of the young girl regarding the connectedness of the
Universe. I took away several things
from the movie, but here are a couple of them –
I now call those unexplained fears that pop up from
nowhere my “Beasts of the Southern Wild”.
Whenever those fears/Beasts pop up, I borrow/paraphrase
from the scene where little Hush Puppy confronts the Beasts, and I say to my
fears/Beasts, “I know you are my friend from who I was before, but I must tend
to who I am right now.”
The real take-away is that
the Universe is “talking” any way and every way it can.(You would not believe the lessons gleaned
from last night’s 4:00 a.m. Spider Solitaire game!)It is a wise entity who would have “ears to
hear and eyes to see”.
There is so much available
for you – let it all in and let it change your world.
“There are no extra parts in the Universe.It is like pi – everything is contained
within it and if something is removed it is incomplete.”
Finch, “Person of Interest”
As I watched one of my
favorite TV shows I was blown away when I heard the above and had to play it
over again to be sure I had heard it right.It reminded me of a lesson I was given in August 1987.
I had just had a life
changing experience and felt totally lost as to what I was doing, my purpose,
my reason for being, the choices I had made.I found myself lying on the beach just north of Los Angeles crying my
heart out.All of a sudden I heard very
“Go down 1 mile
from where you lay and remove but one grain of sand.Then watch as the entire planet must
rearrange itself to adjust to the removal of that grain of sand.
single piece of Creation exists because it must be for the Universe to be
Whole.Without you, there would be a
void in the Isness, and that is not the Plan of God.Your value is that you ARE and you ARE the
only one that can be you. You are what makes the Universe Whole.“
In this time of new
beginnings, as our worlds are rearranged it is easy to get caught up in valuing
ourselves by old standards – what we do, what we have, who we know, what
choices we made, etc.The only “yardstick”
that applies in these new times will be “your value is that you exist”.Everything else is of the ego.
“YOU ARE A BLESSING IN MY LIFE.WITHOUT YOU I WOULD NOT BE WHO I AM” and
without you, my Universe would not be Whole.I Love that you exist!
Okay, we are off and running at this
time of new beginnings.I truly believe
it will be imperative that we do everything we can to facilitate the body as it
adjusts to these new times.I have been
concerned that our food chain has become contaminated and our immune systems
are being compromised.
I sincerely urge you to familiarize
yourself with the problems with domestic wheat and domestic rice and do cease
eating GMO foods.
In the “what can I do” category I
enthusiastically recommend the following sites.
may say “I don’ have time for this” especially if you have a “take out/eat out”
lifestyle, but believe me when I say what you will reap from treating your body
with love and respect will be well worth it.And if you are in charge of anyone else’s food consumption there can be
no greater gift of love than this.